My mind is as empty as the wall in front of me. Plain white and bare. There's nothing distinctive about it except for a few cracks here and there. Inside me there's something attacking my insides, particularly the thorax area. It's contracting subtly, reflecting the unwillingness to succumb to whatever that have been told to me. The sad truth is, I can't do anything about it to rebel. Half of what I have heard in the past couple of hours are true. Apart from that, it's conveyed to me by both of my parents. I can't say anything against my dad. He is, afterall, the person who is financing my needs at the present time. I have no choice.
The words were laid out so very clearly to me just now. So straight-forward and clear that I couldn't think of any ways for me to get around the law.
Right now, I'm torn. Torn to the fact that my parents don't approve of this and the fact that what they said is very logical. I'm scared of asking the question(s) because I know no one can be sure of what's going to happen in the long run. How much will I lose out? I don't know. I don't want to hurt anyone, not them, not you, not me. I had enough of being forced to let go of what I want now, all for the sake of a better future, protection of reputation.
:'( i am scared of what's happening inside me
I hate regretting.
Something about me
- Inggrid
- London, United Kingdom
- Bonjour! You can tempt me with fun (e.g. shopping spree), delicious tarts and my boyfriend's hug. Very, very indecisive but is capable of making very snappy decisions when angsty. I like having company around, especially close ones. I am growing a distaste for flying solo. Enjoys doing ordinary things such as shopping , cooking or building castles in the air. Oh yes, & eating yummy delights too!
P.S. nightsky :)
P.P.S. tamago sushi ♥
P.P.P.S. I respect honesty.