Pep talk?

Life kind of sucks lately. I have a disastrous fringe after deciding that I should trim it last week, exam results were out yesterday and today just sucked. I don't know why, maybe I am being superstitious or bias or that-horrible-word-which-starts-with-an-S-ends-with-an-E, but in a nutshell it just sucked. Or yea, maybe I am just tired. Drained, yep.

Oh well, but I guess we can't just pause our life here and take a break because life isn't a casette player- you can't control the rate of which you are going. It can be a broken casette recorder though, because people have the tendency to repeat some sort of silly mistake over and over again (esp. me). I've tried to tell myself "hey, I have to really fix this asap" but yea, you guessed it, I never get off my lazy bum and start moving. It makes me feel like... helpless. Procrastination, immaturity, lack of self control, blah blah blah I can go on and on about my bad habits here. It's an endless list. (I do realise that I complain a lot about myself and sort of highlight my negativity all the time... I wonder if you people find it annoying?!)

Back to the main point... but am I really helpless? No, it's self-inflicted.

Mrs Lau kept on stressing that there's really no point brooding over something which upsets you for too long. Instead of complaining and making things even more difficult, why not just accept it and move on? If there's love in it, then the more you should try to embrace the imperfections or even, try to achieve that perfection together. If your future is in it, just do your best and grasp every second that you have. Regretting isn't what human beings like to go through. You don't like it, I don't like it. Hence, the more we should develop confidence in the things we do and look forward. It's not like we don't have the ability to, most of us have and this shouldn't (& mustn't) go to a waste. We are the key to our future. (oh shit, how corny can that get)

Though yes, some people will think "eh wth, who's she to say that" or "she doesn't even practice what she preach" and shit, but I have to say this. Because if not, then I'll just be trapped in that low self-esteem, no confidence, immature, helpless, always regretting, blah blah blah person. I can't just sit down here and brood over it once more because there's really not that many people around me who is as capable in getting me back on to my feet, slap my butt, push my back and spur me on to live my life.

Sometimes, we just have to shut one eye and remain cool. Never lose your balance because it will only result in a domino effect.

I don't think I am making much sense there (it's more for a personal sort of thing). But really, I am sick and tired of being in this cycle. Sick and tired of feeling like a depressed person. Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. The change that I have to make is vital. I can't fail myself this time round. hahaha & I am supposed to be a happy person, right? :)