just something

I was thinking of one of the mistakes which I made in the past: letting my pride to get in the way of developing something that could bring me some joy instead of a big ball of misery. Although it can be a good thing considering my present situation, it's not something I should terribly be proud of. I don't want to be suffering from pain caused by the same mistakes made. i don't like to talk when i feel something's going wrong though i know very well it's important to tell you what's wrong- i am still trying to correct this
I've changed, a lot, and I am aware of it. The tragedy is I am not very convinced of the benefits that can be reaped. Or whether I am leading myself down the right path (I have strong tendency to go out of it). Or whether I am even capable to reap any of it. Or maybe... am I actually losing something instead?

A mind boggling post, but don't think too much about it. Read between the lines! It's very easy to figure it out. :)