i.t.'.s. .j.u.s.t. .a.d.m.i.r.a.t.i.o.n....................... -.-

inggrid, wake up. like seriously.

One word to summarize everything that you'r gonna read for this post: (mainly, for me)DEPRESSING.

Anything that has got to do with school= :( :( :( :( :( :( :'(

I feel like such a weakling, cause whenever this kind of things happen.. I feel like giving up and all that. I have no freaking self-control, and that's like the (second?)major mistake of my life. Thisz isz badz.

IB threathened me before that if I keep on getting scores like this especially at my age, the whole family is going to break apart. which I don't understand. it's stressing me up. all that stupid fucking pressure that she keeps on applying on me. sometimes, given the chance of studying does not mean that you can do well all the time. THERE ARE conditions.. it's a fucking long story that's so fucking fucked up screwed. and stop fucking saying that student's don't have stress OR it's not comparable to dad's/your fucking-i-don't-know-what-the-fucking-stress-you-face stress. omfuck, don't be so naive. what i need is support not all this fucking pressure, fuck.

I really wish, those shit will just get into your(and dad's too) brain and not to be so silly to feel pressured by the people around you. I mean, if your face more important that your child? You've got to UNDERSTAND you child,.. oh fuck la I don't know why am I doing this. Like as if they will read like that. :l

and I also have my own part to do. true, it's all my choice actually.

Oh wellls. School's goodie bad bad. Got to go back to school like a couple of times for some lessons, and gonna have like a couple of maths tuition PLUS 4 chinese lesson in one week.. all that during the coming precious september holidays. Anyone wants so go study with me somewhere so that I could be more occupied with someone during the holidays(apart from books)? :)

Sigh, if all this will help to make me pull up my grades, I don't see a reason to be grumbling about it. in other words, I am desperate for better grades.

well anyway,
KAAMBATE, MINNA! :D