Dear friends, so long.. (quoted DAI's Yesterday and Today)

Well, I've got myself into a huge mess and didn't know what to do about it again. Sighs, I really want to thank my friends for suggesting things for me so that I won't repeat what's done and everything. I.. am really touched.
-starts sobbing my heart out, choked on my tears and died.

Haha, just joking on the sobbing my heart out part okay! Haha! I think, I really shouldn't take things for granted and everything and got to really put my everything in my studies. Well, at least the major part of my life la. Haha.

(To tell you the truth, I don't really understand what's taking things for granted. Haha, I was just trying my luck and hope I used it corretly. ;D)

I've got to many apologies to give out.(which sounds rather ironic cause who in the world gives out apologies?) Parents, teachers, friends and my future(myself?). In short, mainly everything around and within me. I always said that my future is like a broken bridge, which sounds so true to me. I don't even know what I want to be when I grow up. I don't exactly have a dream.

BUT, I thought about it last night for a while. I thought about the dreams that had crossed my mind. And recently, it's(DO NOT be shocked when you hear/read this) TCM. TCM is abbriviation The Chinese Medicine. .. .. Haha, I think it's temporary only la. Okay shit, which means I am too addicted to JEWEL IN THE PALACE(da chang jin) already. Ahh.. well, anyway..

I guess I will just have to like go with what's available now. It's a little too late right? Like what my brother told me: You'r just stupid enough to close one door by not doing your best to get triple science last year. IT'S MAKING A LOT OF SENSEEEEEEE.. >): Ah well, ah well, ah well. I am still having the passion to take Medicine course and be a doctor(either a paediatrian or a psychologist). Woa, sounds so big-brainy I know. Sighs, my results are such big obstacle. All thanks to me. Grah. :@

Okay, enough of this I guess. I hope the reflections I did will make me stop doing the stupid things. So yea. Oh, and reply to atty's tag. It's just too long to reply everything on the tagboard. Haha babe, I'll reply it here. :D

INGGRID(atty):
It's okay to spam in that way! Thanks for all your rich cares for me. Haha! :D Sighs, what did you do last year then? Well well, I am going to really prepare myself properly now. 'O's for me are so nearrrrrrrrrr! Eventhough yours is like so much nearer.. -.- I am getting the jitters already you know! What a failure. >): Bad sign. I am also trying to study for myself, but I always fail to do that. I'll just like, aiya nevermind just do it later, ect ect. Sighs. AIYA! Next semester la. Cause Malay Dance will only start in June. (actually starting practice at 19th)

I am folding origamis now. Doesn't really look good.. >):

Oh, background music is changed too. (: