Le boyfriend in army uniform ♥♥♥ :D
My two lovelettes (new name!!) ♥♥
I've spent the first week in Singapore with my closest few. My mom went back to Indonesia on Monday, leaving me alone with my brother, who comes home late because of work. It gave me a lot of liberation, and of course, I treasured every moment of it, especially in Singapore because I normally have curfew of a 9 year-old. At first, I felt quite lonely and missed my mom. But by now, I am quite sad that it's coming to an end. No more coming home close to 10pm, dinner out, breaking house rules, etc. I suppose I can convince myself that, with her around, I'll have to stay at home and do what I should/MUST do this Easter break: STUDY. Obviously, that was not on my list of things to do in the recent week. I'm freaking worried now actually. My assignments are overdue. O_O
I'm scared to a point that my heart feels weirdish. Anyway, I took a nap a couple of hours back in hopes that I'll complete some of it. I must, must finish half of it by tonight. (out of 3) Arghhh, I hope my mom's existence in the house will inspire me to study. Yea, I'm THAT reliant. Boohoo.
Being stressed has pulled me into a slight depression once more. Right now, I miss EVERYONE. Shaun, Mom (and soon my liberation), Mila, Rachel, my sister... the list goes on. It never really happened before. My shell is cracking? Perhaps.
While Auntie Pat was sending me back home after sending off Shaun, I told her about my view of LDR and army. I told her that maybe, at least for me, LDR is helping me somehow to cope with the fact that my beloved is in army i.e. gone for at least 5 days of the week. I realised that ever since I came back, I miss him to a greater degree than when I was in the UK. It could be because I was not used to the cycle of seeing in for 2 days straight after 5 days of absence. I don't know how to explain it, yet. & I think I did a very terrible job at explaining it to her. It was so embarrassing! T_T
Alright, I must get back to work.
I miss you ♥
