the LDR thing

Let's talk Long Distance Relationship (LDR).

I'm (or rather, we are- but I shall refer it to only myself for now since this is my vista) currently exactly one month into one of the higher level of relationships- LDR. Even though one month is not a very long time and I am still a total beginner at this, unfortunate for my/our case, I/we have been going through the bitter side of it. Hence, the experience so far has not been pleasant for the both of us.

Hitherto, it has been pretty darn tough. At least half of the time I was upset about something, which would affect him and we would both be upset/annoyed/disappointed/feeling the worst/jaded/lost. & this obviously affects our relationship negatively. Of course, this has been happening even before the LDR started. Summer was quite a struggle with my parents' restrictions. We didn't get to see each other as often as we liked and used to. Sensitivity would kick in now and then and we'll be affected. We have our little silent disagreements and stop talking to each other for a period of time. Now, the fact that the frequency of that happening has increased doesn't help the relationship one bit. & it sucks to the power of infinity.

With him being all the way in Singapore and myself in London, the issues that has remained unsettled just get worse and new issues arise. The first couple of weeks into LDR were alright, we were positive about ourselves and I've decided to take the leap of faith and trust him. But it just come tumbling down from there. I would say I am the main culprit for the bruises and wounds on the relationship. I would be the one who'll be picking up little details, let my mind do the work and express my ultra-sensitivity on him. Then we would feel upset/annoyed/disappointed/feeling the worst/jaded/lost. The thing about LDR is that it makes the making up part so much more difficult than in real life. Hence, tedious. (I wish I had avoided that)
don't you agree?
As cliché as it may sound, it takes 2 hands to clap, 2 lovers for a relationship to work. When I do things that only take into account of my own vista and not his, I am not doing the relationship a favour, more of harming it. I knew this perfectly well at the start of the relationship, but as we progress, it slipped out of my mind. I think that's the one of the reasons why I keep throwing bitch fits at him. I am always thinking for my own self and not him.

At this point, I have to thank my love for constantly keeping that in mind; to be in my shoe, protecting my feelings. So yes, thank you for being the pillar of the relationship, to light up my dying soul and to be my guidance in nearly everything. When I said "what will I do without you" (LOL), I will definitely be living my own life (as what you said). But it wouldn't be as loved and exposed to so many things. It'll definitely be so deprived! I'm grateful for you, Shaun Ng Wai Yan, for being part of my life! :)
I love you ♥
But guys please (and girls), be as transparent and assuring as you can. This stops us from thinking so much.

This is all I have to let out for now. I should be really be get going with my Econs/ finish my French homework. All the best, peace out people! :)

P.S. it seems like I'm not the only girl who express their sensitivity most of the time. Apparently girl's have a higher tendency to throw bitch fits. Hang in there guys, for the sake of love ♥