what's meant to be is meant to be

 A potato couch is in the living room, sitting on the sofa and speechless. Munching all the way from noon to dinner and probably later, checking her phone occasionally as she watches the shows airing on the rectangular box in font of her. The fat lazy creature is none other than myself. I am not able to think of a better way to spend my day other than relying heavily on the electronics. & thinking about some stuff as well. I didn't have a good night sleep and it has affected my thoughts of the day. Le sigh. D:

Growing Up part 3 episode ? (I caught the later half of the episode) taught me some lessons regarding lies. The narrator was ending the episode and said some sentences which I found very much logical. Some people tell lies to protect their loved ones. However, these lies will be recovered and known eventually. When it does, it will only push away the people you cared for the most. Regardless of whether it's told out of good will or to harm others, we all know it'll all reach the same outcome.

Personally, I've told lies thinking that the person whom I've lied to will not come to know the truth since I am the only secret keeper. Since it doesn't harm anyone and in fact will protect the person from being hurt, so why not just hide the truth? All these mind fooling of others ended up mind-f-ing myself. Many times it has got me insecure, harming the relationships I have/had. Creating an illusion to the people we love, making ourselves seem like the type whom our loved ones would desire, how long are we actually able to keep that image? Lies have to covered up with more lies, consequences will only build up as it happens. In the end, all we have is just superficial feelings that will break apart at the slightest touch of Truth. What's the point of going one big round and realise what we really have actually isn't ours to keep?

Recently someone told me that he asked himself this "why do I need you in my life?". It's an infectious question. Be truthful.