deeply touched.

Bowtie! ♥ I know my pose is damn retarded but it's cool ok. Tell me, would you dare to put it up?!

I haven't mentioned that I had a haircut, for nearly 3 weeks. Nor uploaded a picture of my new hair. Well, it's better late than never! Here it is, up there. My new hair: a shorter fringe, more layers but the length didn't change much. I got rid of the split and dry ends, yey! I am not satisfied with the whole cut though. I seriously believe it doesn't suit my personality and there are rooms for improvement on how she handled my delicate fringe. It's still as dreadful now, after waiting for nearly a month and self trimming it to make it look more even (it was horribly loopsided). The hairdresser has relocated to a new, lousier place and I guess that has a part to play in her deteriorated skills. She charged the same price nonetheless. Rip-off, I say.


Part of my day has passed by decently. I watched the 2nd episode of VOICE (ヴォイス) just now. It got me thinking on a lot of things... before I start talking about them, the episode is about *SPOILER AHEAD* a group of forensic students investigating the death of an unemployed man. He was walking home, holding a bag of eggs which he just bought from the market, suddenly collapsed and died on the spot. This group of students, being very nosy and giving us dorama (and Eita fangirls!!) lovers something to watch at the same time, got out of their way and acted as though they were detectives. They investigated the cause of death... which turned out to be really touching. He was actually buying the eggs to make his wife some french toast in order to make up to her (who initially voiced out that she felt they haven't been doing anything together for a long time and that their relationship is strained). He died because he was electrocuted earlier on while plugging in an old plug to the socket as he wanted to watch a movie (Kramer vs. Kramer) which the couple both liked. The wife actually thought that he wanted to end the relationship as the guy left his ring in the kitchen and he was nowhere to be seen. In fact, he left it there because it's a natural reaction to take if off before cooking. Cooking something for her. It was so touching. :'(

Through the episode, they also covered the feelings that the widow has to live with for the rest of her life. It was really overwhelming as I think about it. Can you imagine someone you love so much died right after you told him that you are disappointed with him and before he died he was actually trying really hard to make it up to you? If I were her, will I get over it? Why did I doubt his feelings and devotion right before he died, in such a way too? Why is life so... vulnerable? Why must I say those things before I leave the house? :'(

Damn, I am very emotional now. :'( :'( :'(