Sunday, 5 April 2009

I miss you

This guy here is my brother.

His name is Ekky.

Just came back from Heathrow after sending my brother off to Singapore. It's quite weird how I started feeling lonely when I stepped into the empty apartment. Usually my brother would be there, in his room, sitting in front of his laptop. Even such a sight (which seemed to be mundane/ordinary then) is more welcoming suddenly after comparing to the current missing figure. When I was on the way to Heathrow just now I was actually thinking I won't be missing him because I should be used to this kind of things (yea, I grew up sending people off to the airport hahaha). But no, I proved myself wrong 10 minutes ago. The feeling starts crawling in bit by bit. It's quite immense right now. :(

I don't know why I am feeling this way. I felt what I thought I wouldn't be feeling and didn't feel what I thought I would be feeling. Maybe I am going through this now because I came home alone and the house is empty. Maybe it's because I know that he's going back to Singapore for good. Or maybe because so many people left London for Singapore, Italy, Oxford, etc. Maybe because he's my brother. Or... maybe baby. ;)

There are some perks to his departure though. I get the keys (it wouldn't be a problem anymore if I came home when he's having his nap -always happens- He always scolds me if that happens), I get his desk, his book shelf, his room basically. I had to share a room with my sister before and the kitchen was my workplace. Oh yea, not to forget! He won't be here to shower me with "fuck"s every now and then. I might actually miss that habit of his by a teeny weeny bit, but it gets really annoying when he does it right in your face. Everytime.

Nevertheless...
I miss you! Even though it's quite likely that you won't be reading this since I never mentioned my blog before to any of my family members. :)

I hope he's enjoying his trip back. I want to be in Singapore now as well :( (omg, I am finally craving to go back wts)