There's a part of me that is trying to think rationally, the other still being a child. It's difficult to do the former because I held quite high hopes for the plans I have in mind albeit the near-zero successful rate/ unsure whether I am going to carry it out.
Maybe, maybe that situation is a blessing in disguise. Someone's is trying to prevent me from getting myself into such a situation because it's known that the chance of it turning out to be good is veeeeery low. Should I just throw in the white flag and succumb to whatever that has been told to me?
This is tough.
it's been pressing hard, throbbing, for 3 days straight and I have yet investigated the cause of it