The power of words

I don't care.

When I heard that, it felt like as if someone grabbed hold of my heart so tightly until it aches. How do they say that in Chinese? 心酸? I think it is. I looked like as though I am not affected by it, but actually I am. I thought you would understand why I am doing that after explaining to you.. but you didn't? But come to think of it, I think I would feel the same way as well if I were you. Ahhh, I don't know la.

Today's weather was good! I think. Yesterday's was better though. Yesterday morning was quite bright until I thought that it was 9 when I woke up. But when I checked my phone, it was just 6.50AM. Haha, I had a 10 minutes nap after that. On my way to school, the sun was higher up in the sky compared to most of the mornings too. Yesterday was a better day afterall. I am unsure whether I still want to see snow. Spring is quite appealing to me. Haha :)

Why was yesterday a better day? Well, I didn't have a tests to screw up that's why. I screwed up today's Biology and Accounts test really badly. Maybe Economics as well. It sucks when you realised that you screwed it up because you didn't even study for it. & when the sentence "you deserved it" starts to pop in your mind repeatedly until it irritates you. & when I thought of the people whom I have disappointed. It sucks, really.

The day ended pretty sucky-ly too. I ran all the way from Math class just to catch nothing. Not even a shadow. & what's worse is that it didn't even leave my pocket at all. I guess some things are just not meant to be passed over. No fate?

I am not typing like myself again -_- & I am glad that my jacket is warm. The 8 pounds wasn't a waste after all.

Okay, that's it. I am going to do my cocoa beans, which I have been owing Mr Lea for like 3 weeks already, now. Pray for me?