After much racking of my brain..

I remembered something OXY told me somewhen in the year. We were talking about crushes, while walking to some classroom.. I think? Well anyway, she was telling me:

I think it's not a crush, you are just admiring her.
(pardon me for my lousy memory)

Wowz, she's like some very wise(and sexy) woman enlightening me from all the confusions and all that kinda stuff that I went through for the past few years... I thought about my babybaby[: case, and found it rather funny in a not funny way(wtf am I saying?). To cut the long story short, I came to a conclusion that what I had been doing was just admiring someone(babybaby[:). Hmm, admiring someone who is militarish.. Hmm, that's something new! :D

This confusion between love and admiring, sure is confusing huhr? ;D

OH, BTW. I am not les okaaay!! Sighsigh. :(<
-well, not as simple.. .. .. haha, kidding?

I was watching the news just now and found it quite touching in a way by the way the Central Java earthquake victims moving on with their lives. Some of the victims were still in the mood to watch the World Cup. I was kinda shocked la, not sure why, but just shocked. Well, how should I put it. The simplest form of joy or the never-say-die attitude of these people? Haha, anyhow.. It amuses me. :)

Sighs, there are so many things in life that I hadn't see and experience..

(sry lesbpard and huihui. Cheesy update!)