Dilemmas makes my head go round and round.

Sorry, I don't want to make this entry look headline-ish. Yeaps, changed timing. ;D

Dad and IB left Singapore today, around 2/3pm. Haha, I was in Hrbfront today eating toasts with Wang Jiao with Hosanna, Mila and Hannah(haha, she joined smss! Poor lil' sec 1). Didn't meet them though. I feel so remorsed.. For parents(both dad and IB). I failed to make them proud of me, again and again. Like, darn sorry la. Last year was total disaster due to my.. slack and stuff. ):

Appeal turned out to be a failure, I was told that both of them are really disappointed in me. Hey, I am not happy with myself either alright? It's like, closing a door when you know it'll do you good next time. Everyone's gonna be disappointed with me, I ain't enjoying that at all.

I started feeling depressed lately, due to many little stuffs. You know, a little this and that adds up to form something big. So yea, it's like I am trying to forget/leave it alone/take control of the problem but for some reason, there's always things that made me remember those stuffs. & today is not a good day, especially my new index number. -.-

Ah wells, what the hell. I don't think I am going to go on typing all this shit and pondering even more on the problem.. if only homework is easier.. pffts, I feel fucking depressed right now. Ws ws.