Fuck the whole world, you can't trust anyone. >:l

Fucking shit, I am so fucking pissed off shit okay. Fuck it. Where's the justice in this world, man? I don't want my emotion to take control of me, but sometimes things just go out of the way and all. Being over-emotional is just so annoying. ARR. >:(

I don't know why, I purposely play some drum shit and listen to it over and over again. It'll be good if I have a drum, cause most likely that will be where all my temper go. :l

Everything is pissing the hell out of me now. I prefer living alone, seriously. I shall repeat: I PREFER LIVING ALONE.. with sufficient money supply. I don't mind living with my good friend(s), just as long as I have sufficient money supply to support my daily life and that I don't live with people like IB. I want to be like JR. Such a strong role model. (:

I've got many things yet to be learnt, and I've got to do that fast. I don't like what I am going through now. And I don't know what may happen to me in the future that may make me regret what I am going to say now, but I don't like this family. For forcing me to do things that I don't want to, putting so much restrictions in my life and as such. Mainly things that are classified under "IT'S-FOR-YOUR-OWN-GOOD" category. Yea, so what if I want to do things that you all may say that it's a waste of money/useless? Learning one or two music instrument is my interest. It doesn't cost that expensive, nothing compared to that stupid LV wallet that got lost about three months after someone got it. So is that fair? I don't think so, bitch.

They said I am spoilt, get what I want, the "apple of parents' eye". Is that true? I'd say it's all fake shit that never existed. IB cursed and even said she hates me, they heard that ever so clearly. A joke? I don't think so. Getting what I want? Gee, on really special occasions I will and what I showed is all I have. BTW, 90% of what I want is rejected, shit heads. Maybe more than that. I thought I could at least depend on my dad, but no. Betrayal, that sinful word exists in this family. Everyone turned their back. On occasions facing me only for a few seconds and turn them back again. My education in Singapore hangs by a thin thread. You like it if you were me? I doubt so. :)

I really do hope you understand what I am feeling right now.. or should I say most of the time?


& I hate people who peep on my work, asking me why I wrote what. Hate is a strong word, don't try to correct me cause I always knew that.