I stood right below where the Angels' tears might have fell.

I feel miserable, cause I am starting to dread school(which I have to attend every weekdays) and especially facing the teachers who already have bad impressions of me. Drat, this sucks. Well, on certain cases maybe I might have asked for it but as for others it just seemed so accidental. We'r not given chances to well, maybe explain ourselves but were just given a direct warning from the ones who have higher authority. This kinda reminds me of what Rachel's very deep question today(doesn't really link): what's free will when there's divine intervention?

It's not a fair world, yes I agree but do you have to put it in such a harsh manner? And please note that different people have different ways of accepting critisizisms. Oh, and plus you were encouraging a young girl to scold her friend because she was trying to play with her(at the wrong timing) or DOING SOMETHING SILLY. Crap I don't know what to say, I was so pissed at you but I couldn't say it out. Just because you are going to do me a favour at the end of the year, and I wouldn't want to get into trouble that might disappoint my parents again. I felt so threatened and useless. Sigh, nevermind I guess I'll just have to get over this year as peacefully as I can and get as far as possible from you and that place. :)

Grr, this is really so frustrating. So many things are happening but I don't know how to say it all out.. I feel like as if I am a time bomb that is running out of time. I feel like squatting down and space out. I feel like just looking at (another)you and find out about whether my intuition is right. But of course, I already knew the answer cause there's someone else in front of me.

This world seem so sad to me, I don't know how to be positive anymore.

do I need to be more positive?

Rushing for homework nearly killed me, damnit. Ok fine, maybe I should add "last minute" before the homework word. Sigh, it's like never-ending you know! I was trying to rush finish everything since 8.30PM but managed to complete like only 1 chinese 公函 and half of English compre. Overall, I finished all Chinese homework though which is rather amazing. Ah well, I dread tomorrow anyway cause practically all the homework is due then. Plus, there's also Chinese CT to look forward to, which includes passages from the textbook and some 汉语 and of course I am totally not prepared for it. Sigh, bad time management + no self-control + lazyness = Inggrid's Kamikaze.

Nevertheless, I still went out today with Mila to browse around and eat and of course, see him. OMG, IT WAS A MAJOR DISAPPOINTMENT I TELL YOU AND I NEARLY FAINTED..... he was out of town. :'( and he'll only come back on the 22/26th. :'( :'( why must it always be like this? Why didn't I take you on that day, why? Why did I just leave you there all alone, why? I SHOULD HAVE SNATCH, SNATCH AND SNATCH YOU AWAY THAT DAY, but I didn't. I regreted, I really do. I hope you'll still be the same one when you come back.. please don't change. :'(

So practically my whole day was about you, and about my silly mistake for not snatching you away.. but I was distracted halfway cause I saw a very beautiful ring and it cost $26. I'm so gonna save up for it, and Mila's saving up too for her stuff! Yaaay~ I hope the ring won't ended up as the same case as him's. *cross fingers! x_x*

We ate Omu Rice instead of sushi in the end, cause decided to be more budget and there's not enough time.. And Mila missed her Tennis lesson, cause it was raining and all! I can't believe it ok, her tennis lesson is at JURONG and she lives near school which is so darn far! Geeez.. Went home around 7 something and watched DJG while doing homework.. I feel so tired now sigh. WhatamIgonnado? D:

I dread school. And some people have nothing else better to do. Again, I dread school. :'(